You know that noise in the background, which your mind blocks out…
The flickering lights which you don’t even notice…
The washing machine singing it’s finishing tone…
The unexpected stop at the shop…
It makes my head spin.
I am only six and a bit different than you.
I am AUTISTIC.
My brain is struggling to deal with so many things. I experience the world around me on a very intense level.
I don’t always know how to deal with my feelings and then my brain gets confused… I might just meltdown, scream and cry… please understand, I’m not naughty or rude, I just can’t deal with anything right now.
I struggle making friends and socializing, it’s because I’m a bit different to them. If I don’t look you in the eyes, it’s because I feel uncomfortable, please understand that I’m not disrespectful.
You know sometimes I interrupt your conversations, it’s because I have something very important to say and if I wait too long, my thoughts will go away.
I want to be obedient and on time, but I need a strict schedule, because unfamiliar routines and things make me stress and I just meltdown.
If I’m lying on the floor, out of control, screaming and crying, please don’t give me a hiding. All I want is for you to pick me up and hold me tight, for me to know everything will be all right.
At school I try my best to deal with the sensory overload and everything around me, I don’t want to get into trouble for having a meltdown at school because other people don’t understand me as well as you do, but I might meltdown when I get home… just leave me alone, let me do something that relaxes me and we can chat about my day later.
This is who I am, I am a bit different than other people, but I am special in every kind of way.
Please just know that I’m trying my best to be good and make you proud.
Thank you for always loving me.
Lots of love
Your SPECIAL child